Shortly after my Robert passed we moved to Houston, TX and stayed with my parents. My husband went back into the Army didn't leave until the following Feb. 2005. I got Mollie and Jacob into school and walked them to school everyday. I decided that I needed to do something, I couldn't just sit around and cry my eyes out. I enrolled and started class in September, to be a Medical Assist. I figured I would go into the Medical field so that I could learn all I could. I wanted to know why my son died if all there was wrong was a damn liver that was bleeding internally. I absolutely loved going to school, I made such good grade's I impressed myself. I did learn though that if my son would of had the appropriate medical care in time; he could of been saved. But it was to late to do something about then, so I decided I wanted to make a difference in other lives.
That Christmas was very hard for everyone. My parents tried very hard to make it a great Christmas for the kids. I remember we bought our first video camera so that we could take pictures and videos of the kids. I remember that Christmas morning Mollie came running and yelling about snow. She came to get me and take me to the back door. I looked out the doors and tears came down my face, as I remembered that Robert wanted it to snow on Christmas so he could play and make a snowman . We all got dressed and went out to play. I videoed the kids while they were making their snowman. They then went and found things to put on the snowman. When they were done they called everyone out and showed us there snowman, his name was Robert. For me I just cried more, but inside I knew that the snow was from Robert. That was the only year that Galveston beach was covered with snow.
I graduated May 2005 and got to work in my first Dr. office. I had so much fun, my past experience with death came in handy. I helped out a patient that had lost her husband and was having issues. The nurse and doctor asked if I would talk to her so I did. She asked what had happened to me, who had I lost. After explaining to her about Robert and that I had been having serious issues with his loss. I used to sleep with his ern literally, I would cry myself to sleep and talk to him on a daily bases. After I explained that to her that everyone has different ways of dealing with death of loved ones; she explained to me that she had done the same with her husband's ern. I was so happy that I could talk to someone and help them, it was a great feeling.
We left for Hawaii June 2005, we were ready to make a new start. I got into college started on just a associates degree, and got a job working in family practice there on Schofield barracks. I met new friends and loved my neighbors. I walked Mollie to school and picked her up everyday. Even started going to the gym and getting my life back on track, well the best that I could considering. I was in denial that I needed to talk to anyone or even need any medicines for help. I After a year of living on Schofield barracks we moved out to Ewa Beach. That was the most beautiful place I had ever lived. Walking distance to the beach, a shoppette, school, work center and even a ice cream shop. The kids loved it there, they had so much stuff to do and stay occupied.
Jenn
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